Jail Time

On Tuesday, October 24, I went to jail. As a visitor. The purpose was to meet a long-time friend for lunch. He wasn’t an inmate. In fact, for the last year he’s been the chaplain at the Jefferson County Detention Facility. The story of how he ended up in the position and the events that led up to it is a remarkable testimony to God’s grace. However, that’s a story for another time. Quinn Wilhelm was senior warden of the parish I served before coming to Trinity. For months before I joined their staff the parish had been in great turmoil. All that held folks together was the faithful remaining priest on their staff, Fr. Phil Webb and Quinn. Quinn is one of the best people to have on your side in a crisis situation. This is not only because of his great leadership skill but because he is a man of deep faith and profound prayer.

We spent our lunch off site catching up on what God had been doing in our lives. Afterwards Quinn took me to jail. I got a tour of some of the units and noted the great respect both the deputies and the prisoners had for my friend. The most moving part of the tour was with a group of inmates who meet together a couple of times a day for Bible study and prayer. I’m told the prayer session once ran to five hours!

Quinn and I sat in the circle as the leader partly taught, partly preached and the enthusiasm was electric. After about 20 minutes we all stood and the group prayed for us both. Quinn then prayed for the men in the group. As I watched and shared in the prayers the thought occurred how few of these men grew up being blessed by their fathers or by much of anybody. I’m pretty sure the thought was God directed.

As we concluded I asked Quinn if I could bless the men in this group (about 16 in all). He was ok with that so we asked them and they were eager. Thanks to Russ Parker’s teaching on blessing in August, I was fairly confident I knew what God was asking of me. I recounted the Father’s words to Jesus at his baptism “You are my Son, the beloved; with you I am well pleased.” Russ had pointed out that these words had been spoken before Jesus had done any mighty works, before he called his disciples, before he had done any teaching at all. In other words, the beloved status was based on being rather than doing.

So slowly around the circle I approached each man. They spoke their name and I anointed them and gave them this blessing: “[Name], I bless you to know that you are God’s beloved son.”

Yeah, it was a pretty emotional time for all of them (and us), but it reminded me of the power of blessing and the power it gives someone to know that they are still beloved, even after a life that has led them into jail.

I know this is not a call to prison ministry. That’s Quinn’s gift, not mine. But it is a renewed call to be a person of blessing.

Preparing for the return

I got to spend some time in jail today. It was a really wonderful and blessed experience and I’ll tell you about it in a future post. However today my attention is shifting away from the sabbatical experience towards return to – and reintegrating with – Trinity Parish. The following will appear in our parish newsletter but I’m sharing it early with those of you who read this to give you some sense of what return means to me.

Reconnecting

Last month I shared a reflection (in the parish newsletter) on how, even during a seven-week absence, I maintain connection with Trinity Parish. Now, as we are entering our last week away and beginning preparations to return to Greeley, it is time to reflect on reconnecting. Before I do that, there is a subject I’ve mentioned from time to time in the last couple of years, the question of when I might retire.

The answer to that question is that I have as yet no answer to that question. For the last nearly 20 years Dorie Ann and I have intentionally given over control of where we serve to God’s direction. Each time we have moved from one congregation to another it was because of two things. First, the work I was doing was completed. Second, the call to go another place was both unsolicited and unexpected. Beginning with the latter, we’ve had no invitation to go anywhere. And I believe there is more for me to do here. Please note, this is my intuition, not God’s revelation.

Each time God has moved us, we’ve had about three months’ notice before the move. The Church Pension Fund requires a six-month notice before drawing one’s pension so God & the Pension Fund will have to sort that out between them. In short, this means we’re returning from the sabbatical with no plans other than to keep on serving at Trinity pending further instructions from the Holy Spirit.

Now on to reconnecting: while I hope you’ve remembered me fondly while I’ve been on sabbatical, it will soon be time to be re-membered to our common life. We rarely remember that the word member has its origins in the human body. To use it in any other way was to use it analogically to describe profound and intimate connections between human beings. That was long ago. Today the word member has dropped in value. We can be a member of an organization or group with which our relationship is superficial and undemanding. However, there is still one use of the word member that carries the force of the original meaning: dismember.

On the one hand that seems an over-the-top image for being away for seven weeks. On the other, particularly because I continued to hold you all in daily prayer, it did feel a little like being “dismembered.” Even daily intercession is insufficient to maintain the full connection we are to have as one Body. And this sense of disconnect is caused in part by what God has done for us in Jesus.

I do not speak here about reconciliation, salvation, forgiveness or any of the normal things we would list about what Jesus has accomplished. Instead my focus is on that one line in the Gospel of John: “The Word became flesh and dwelt among us.” (John 1:14) There are two thing implied in the verse that have significance for reconnecting.

First, the Word becoming flesh is no accident. A wholly spiritual God has entered into a very physical, material world in Jesus. The ancient hymn The Exultet declares that “earth and heaven are joined and sin is washed away.” The late J.B. Phillips wrote: “We shall never know, in the depths of our being, the meaning of the crucifixion, or of the triumph of the resurrection, until we see that this man Jesus was God being a man, and not in any sense God pretending to be a man.” This means for us that community is built from our material interactions. It is important that we see one another face to face, hear one another’s voice. As I discovered many years ago from the initial and ongoing failure to create human community online, if it is not local, it is not real.

The second implication of John 1:14 is in the phrase “dwelt among us.” The word translated as “dwell” is more accurately rendered as “pitched his tent” or more awkwardly “tabernacled among us.” Whichever word we use the image is of someone moving with a mobile community. Wherever we go the Incarnate Word travels with us. To reconnect using this image means me tracking alongside the rest of the Trinity community in the directions God leads you and me.

On Wednesday, November 1 I restart my work among you most appropriately at the celebration of All Saints’ Day at 6:30a with Eucharist in the chapel. It is appropriate because the theme of the day is the communion of the saints or in less religious jargon, the connectedness of our community. I would love to see any of you who can make that early hour then. But in the days and weeks to follow I’d prefer to spend as much time as I can manage chatting with you, whether over coffee or a meal, and reconnect.

I look forward to being back in our common life.

Diversion

Having posted on Foundations I had intended more reflections on the third foundation, the foundation of the church. However, in working on that I realized that I need to work a great deal more on the 1st and 2nd foundations beforehand. Since that will take some time, and there are less than 2 weeks left on this sabbatical leave, I’ve turned my attention to the booklet I’ve been preparing on the Trinity Way of Life. Even that has gone in unexpected directions. The introduction has taken on a life of its own and I am posting it here to invite any comments and reflections.

How are you growing in your spiritual life?

  • Rapidly?
  • Moderately?
  • Slow and steady?
  • Contented?
  • Stalled?
  • Dissatisfied?
  • Never even thought about the question?

It’s a question worth considering. Spiritual growth for Trinity Parish is the process of discovering God in the “tiniest infinite detail” of our lives. It means the realization that our lives have eternal purpose and that we can make a difference in our world when we connect with others on the Jesus road. Spiritual growth moves us from being a collection of individuals who may gather from time to time on a Sunday morning to being the Body of Christ – the coherent and conscious presence of Jesus in that part of our world where we live and work and play.

It is obvious that Jesus himself is central to our concept of spiritual growth. But how do we relate to Jesus? We can be an admirer as many of his followers were. That doesn’t get us very far on the Jesus road. But many of his admirer’s became disciples, a common enough word in religious jargon. The word in the New Testament that we translate as disciple simply means student. The significance of that word only becomes apparent when we look at what a student did in those days. Rowan Williams, the former archbishop of Canterbury, described it this way:

In other words, what makes you a disciple is not turning up from time to time. Discipleship may literally mean ‘being a student,’ in the strict Greek sense of the word, but it doesn’t mean turning up once a week for a course (or even a sermon). It’s not an intermittent state; it’s a relationship that continues. The truth is that, in the ancient world, being a ‘student’ was rather more like that than it is these days. If you said to a modern prospective student that the essence of being a student was to hang on your teacher’s every word, to follow in his or her steps, to sleep outside their door in order not to miss any pearls of wisdom falling from their lips, to watch how they conduct themselves at the table, how they conduct themselves in the street, you might not get a very warm response. But in the ancient world, it was rather more like that. To be the student of a teacher was to commit yourself to living in the same atmosphere and breathing the same air; there was nothing intermittent about it.[1]

For this reason, we use the term apprentice rather than disciple.

The Trinity Way of Life is our peculiar way of intentional spiritual growth, of being apprentices. We do this not for our own personal benefit alone, but that we continue becoming a congregation that gives blessing to our community and through whom God releases healing to the wounded and freedom to the captive.

[1] Williams, Rowan. Being Disciples p. 2

Foundations

The first Sunday in October, fourteen years ago, I preached a sermon series on foundations. It was topical at the time. We were in a difficult transition in the parish. The denomination and its overseas partners were in turmoil. We were, to say the least, unsettled. It seemed a good time to look at what shape our foundation was in as a Christian community. Those of us who were at Trinity in those days may tell you they remember the series because of an illustration that stretched over four weeks. It had to do with the near collapse of Winchester Cathedral and how a deep sea diver helped save the cathedral. It’s a great story, but I won’t retell it here. If you’re interested just search for “Diver Bill” on the Internet.

The issue of foundations has been an unexpected theme in my sabbatical reading. Though Scripture tells us “For no one can lay any foundation other than the one already laid, which is Jesus Christ.” (1Corinthians 3:11); in fact, a building has foundations built on the central foundation. When we were beginning our narthex expansion in 2012, we did soil sampling of the ground where we would build. That soil was found to be fill dirt and no matter how solid a foundation of concrete and rebar we could pour; the ground underneath was too unstable to build on. The ultimate foundation of any building is the solid earth itself, and that equates to the Jesus foundation of the Body of Christ.

Even though the ground was unstable we built there anyhow, but not in foolishness. Rather, the builders drove a number of “helical piers” into the bedrock below the unstable soil. Thus a second “foundation” was set into the ultimate foundation of bedrock. This leads to another use of the image of foundation in Scripture: “… the foundation of the apostles and prophets, with Christ Jesus himself as the chief cornerstone.” (Ephesians 2:20) This secondary foundation’s reference to a cornerstone has real significance in the life of a Christian community. Today, cornerstones are more decorative than functional. In the past, the cornerstone was essential to constructing a stable building. From this stone all other stones will be set in reference. That’s an excellent guideline for a church whether speaking of local congregations or denominations. As the culture in which we exist changes the practices and language of the church must adapt, but only within limits. All changes must be in reference to the cornerstone of Christ Jesus or what we build will not stand for long.

helical piers
Helical piers

Of course, once the helical piers were in place, the foundation of the addition was next. Steel beams were placed along the piers and with rebar and steel sheets the foundation of the addition was poured in concrete. Once that was in place, the building could rise. There is one other foundation image in Scripture: “… you will know how people ought to conduct themselves in God’s household, which is the church of the living God, the pillar and foundation of the truth.”  (1Timothy 3:15) This rather ambitious description of the church makes more sense if we see it as a third foundation dependent on the first two.

A community, founded on the life, death, resurrection and ascension (enthronement) of Jesus is founded on a reality that does not change no matter how cultures and systems and theories evolve. A community building itself with constant reference to the cornerstone of Jesus can adapt to a changing world without compromising its foundation or losing its integrity. If both of those foundations hold, then Paul’s assertion about the nature of the church is quite reasonable.

It is this third foundation that has caught my attention in my sabbatical reading. I think it is important because until we grasp what it is and what it means for us I don’t think we’ll be able to fully realize our destiny in Christ as Trinity Parish.

That’s all I have for today. It will take some time to organize my thoughts. It will take a great deal of prayer to get a glimmer of what I believe God may be saying to us at this time. Don’t expect a quick follow up. But for those few who read this, I ask that you encourage others to read and reflect as well. Blogs are essentially monologues. Even the option for comments doesn’t take us very far. If this time away is to bear the fruit it should, we’ll have to move this from monologue to dialogue.